i’m back today.  we went away this weekend and spent lazy days by the beach and ate a lot of donuts.  it reinforced my daydreams of secretly moving to a little town so that i can swim in the ocean at night and work at a factory making widgets during the day.  i think as i grow older, i constantly desire a means to refine and simplify.  it’s like i tangled myself up in life moving full speed ahead, and now i want to get myself out of the mess.  to learn how to pause + think + pause again.  oh saturn’s return, you’ve been too much for me at times.  but tomorrow, i go wine-ing with my sister who’s coming to visit, so for now, i’ll put all these thoughts to rest.